So what is this bipolar maximum
There is a time in the bipolar cycle when you can be taking every
single med for bipolar on the highest dose and guess it will do
nothing.
Some may what to call it a meds relapse but from what I read is
that meds relapse can only happen if you stop taking the meds and in
my case as well as some other that was not there we was still taking
the meds and when the event is over the meds start to work again.
Now this time do only happen as I can recall from memory only 2 to
3 year. For me it line up with the month that summer break start,
that when it start to near it end.
It last a few a month. And when it start to get bad as in holding
your head in just extreme pain, just trying to hold back the tears,
just wanting to scream to get rid of some of the pain it all ready
starting to near it end.
I just have my last school year.
All you what to do and can do to rid yourself of the pain is to
sleep.
I always end up messing everything up any friend I somehow have I
lose, anything I have going good for me I mess up.
With the med I take for bipolar quetiapine (Seroquel) my mood
stabilize work well, it keep me on a even keel normally.
Yea okay I have to take med, a pill, my mood stabilize quetiapine
(Seroquel) 200mg to keep my mood on a even keel and yea I was on a
hold cocktail of different med to keep my mood at a even keel. I
happy where I am today with my med thing. I take 1 quetiapine at day
time to help my bipolar, my daytrana, for my ADHD, and I take a other
quetiapine at night time to help me sleep at night, and yea 200mg at
night time too.
It act as a reminder for us bipolar for everything our meds take
from us, It take most if not all of the fun stuff about the illness
that the hard part of taking the meds
Small Rant
you know what it not only the meds that take away all the fun
stuff about the illness it also the mask that we have to put on to
fit in anywhere, and we can't ever put down the mask even when I am
at home I can't put the mask down, not even a little, if I do I get a
did you take your meds today, I go yea I did, and then I get a yea I
don't think so, and it go back and forth like that a couple of time,
and then I get ask do your dosage need to be increase it just ah no
It don't so yea when I try to find out how much I can let go even a
little even in my home I get that.
Okay now where was I oh yea, for everything that this disorder
take from us that we are happy to take the med to get then back,
there are also some of the thing that we hate about our med that our
med take from us, and the thing is that the stuff that our meds take
from us, are not all bad, in fact some of the stuff we enjoy, as long
as it don't because to much, we want that state of minds, that
feeling, even if everyone around us feel uncomfortable, we feel good
from it.
There are also other thing that our med take from us thing that I
talk about in my blog post
Top
Seven Terrific Things About Bipolar Disorder.
With the multidimensional thing how we can find out anything about
any topic we are asking in our head about and I mean any topic, even
someone else worse most terrifying time in there life.
Now it not
like I ask myself what that person worse most terrifying time in
there life is no the questions I ask is what is on that person mind,
what that person thinking of, those are the questions I ask also I
need to make direct eye content with the person and then well.
Vivid
images come rushing to my mind, it like I am seeing the event as it
is happening and not only do the memory come to us also the emotion
the person was feeling at the time come to us, and the memory can
even haunt us week, month, after we first see the memory.
I will not
tell a single soul what I have seen. The only person I will tell, is
the person who gave me the memory to be give with, and only if that
person ask me about it, or if that person tell me about that memory
from there own mouth.
Otherwise I don't care who you are, the memory
are not my to talk about.
I never truly wanting to see or know about
the info I get and I don't even know if the person who gave me the
memory know I know about it.
On the bright side of thing this ability
only happen three time in my life and only two time I got info from
someone else memory one time was in middle school, and the other was
in high school.
Also on top of that a other ability I have was to see into the
future, by about a week yea that with the other ability I talk about
sound like some pseudo science right impossible to do type of thing.
Much be having some hardcore hallucinations happening right, but no I
know when I am having a hallucinations well after I had it I do not
when I am having it but after I have it I do know.
So okay back to
the seeing about a week into the future, just hear me out now okay.
In class I have at the time what I thought was a hallucinations it
was not any thing big just a table in the classroom, with book, and
other stuff on it.
The book was the book that the class was reading
at the time, so I move toward to the new table to get my book and the
table vanish into thin air, and went okay that was a hallucinations
at the time, but then about a week later I saw that same table in the
same classroom everything exactly the same as I saw it in my
hallucinations so at the time, I was thinking I was hallucinations
again but no the table was real this time.
And the the Empath thing I talk about in my other blog post
I
am a Empath where and how my empathic ability it kind of like
seeing the world, people not as they pretending to be.
During this
time when I look at people I not looking at them, but I in a way see
through them, I don't see who they pretend to be, I see who they
truly are, I see not what they what us to see, but what they are
truly feeling about the time, that they are hiding.
These thing I am more then happy to have remove from my life for the most part, uh
the best way to explain this the thing I talk about in this blog post
is that see we are right brain dominance and the right side of the
brain, is use in Recognizing faces, Expressing emotions, Music,
Reading emotions, Color, Images, Intuition or also call the
Unconscious, and Creativity.
Now the seeing into other memory, and the seeing into the future
thing are from the Unconscious minds.
The unconscious minds, or the
subconscious is a truly powerful tool, the only problem with this
that our education system pound into us from a early age that if the
your info did not come from a book, a website, an other person, or
any 3rd parties source, then you are wrong on the info.
As in if the
info just came you out of nowhere then the info is wrong.
The
subconscious mind is a truly powerful thing, and the system today
don't allow it to grow.
It like I said a lot of time before if we
people who have bipolar, live in a other life time, back in the
tribal period, we would not be label bipolar, we would be seen at
people who have the gift, of being a Shaman.
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